Monday, February 9, 2015

The Road Not Taken

Hello everyone,

I've finally got stuff to update!!!!

1.  I'm an aunt again! My newest niece is named Mya and is the tiniest little peanut in the world!
2. I got the promotion! But don't get too excited, the raise was not as much as I had hoped, still it's more money and hopefully it will help us in the long run.
3. I have one physical therapy session left and I've been given the okay to go back to dance in small little doses. With taped up shins and lots and lots of stretching of course. But it's so close I can taste it!

However, this leads to my current topic of discussion. The title of my entry is from a famous Robert Frost poem because I've been presented with an opportunity. I'm going to vague about it, but I may have the opportunity to reach dance goals that I no longer thought were an option. But it requires making a serious choice, one that I can't take back once it's made. I'm torn.

The obvious pros are that I'd be able to compete in & overs. I would be around girls my own age and learn whatever sets/speeds I want. There are plenty of competitions and it sounds like this person is like minded that if I want to become an open champ, than lets work to make me an open champ. It's no one elses problem but mine. It's a different organization where I wouldn't be on ban for transferring. There are Nationals and Worlds and I would have opportunities that I would not have anywhere else.

However there are also cons...the obvious one being that I would have to leave behind my TC, his lovely wife as well as some lovely gals that I've gotten to know in the past year. TC has taught me so much, but as previously mentioned in another entry, he has that old school mentality when it comes to adults. I get that, but I was laying in my bed last night practicing steps in my head and I thought to myself, "What's the point?" I'm going to be the only one competing at these competitions. I'll maybe do a performance or two (though probably not because the 4 hand was already decided during my convalescence.) and what will this all be for? Fitness. I get it. But I need more. I want to be the best that I can be and I'm not ready to teach (I do enough of that during the day). I want to be excited and motivated about my dancing and I'm not saying that current TC wasn't helping me do that, but I felt stiflied, knowing I would never move up, and I'd never learn a slow hornpipe and things like that. The other obvious con is that the class is about an hour away and while I don't have a lease anymore. That will be extra gas and wear and tear on the car.

Is it wrong to be selfish? I know there are a few of you out there that read this and know what I'm going through. Should I follow my heart and join this group of women who want what I want? Or should I stay with what I know? I understand that people transfer all the time for various reasons. I know my husband is already wary of this sport (and yes, it is a sport). But I've never loved something so much in my life, and if I get the opportunity to share the stage with even one other person, I'd be thrilled. Not to mention wear a sash or hold a trophy that I actually earned instead of received for just showing up. And right now, it's a better option than moving to the south.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
To new opportunities,

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